[A new year, a new me.]
I hear this phrase so much; in fact I used to say it to myself every start of the year.
It’s not that I don’t like the current version of myself, or that I want or need to make dramatic changes in my life, but for some reason every January I sit down; I create long lists, I make plans, and I imagine and dream big things for the year ahead. Now, don’t get me wrong I don’t actually think there’s anything wrong with imagining great things for our future, but hear me out.
The problem I find in this tiny sentence full of promise is that for most of us our lists start failing quite rapidly, we forget about them, maybe we start the easy things, the ones at the very top of the list, but fail to complete them.
An even bigger problem is when we get frustrated if the things we planned fall through, because let’s be honest life doesn’t always follow our plans.
I began to wonder if all our new resolutions, all our plans come down to fear of the unknown, and fear of the future. If actually we set all these expectations for our lives because we are afraid to lose control, and the obvious solution is to pile up our days with commitments to minimize room for surprises.
But what if we lived our lives the other way around? What if we left room in our busy schedules for God to surprise us?
What would our lives look like then? Do you think we would have fewer disappointments?
Personally I think it would save me a lot of exhaustion, and anxiety. Perhaps I would give myself more grace. That would be nice.
There is one thing on my list this year, and that is to live with an expectant heart, I want to go on about this year trusting this unbelievably faithful God. I want to make room for the unknown because I have a feeling it is only then I will be able to capture all the beautiful things God is doing.
I reckon life would look a tad if not a whole lot more exciting. I would look back and see His goodness, in both the little and the big things.
I encourage you to practice the art of trusting God in all areas of your life. I am aware that this might not be easy, simply because it is not in our nature to let go.
However, they say practice makes perfect, so start small, but start somewhere. Stop planning your every minute, and see what happens.
Jeremiah 29:11 says: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Perhaps you’ve never read these words before or maybe you’ve read them so much that they stopped having meaning.
However like most things God promised His children, these words are true whether we accept them or not, I’m going to choose to let them permeate my days specially when I feel unsure of what happens next.