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faith > Fear

Big decisions require big faith, but what happens when we feel unable to muster up that kind of faith to match those decisions? When faced with significant life decisions such as a physical move from one place to another, making a large purchase, or leaving a stable job, it’s easy. Every decision comes with some level of risk.

 I’m sitting here wondering how much of my life I have spent and will spend in a season similar to this one, where the future is so unknown, a season where life seems fragile, like if I were to touch, move, or even breathe; something, everything will break.

I’m sitting here wondering how much of my life I have spent and will spend in a season similar to this one, where the future is so unknown, a season where life seems fragile, like if I were to touch, move, or even breathe; something, everything will break.

There is always a new show to watch on Netflix, a new album on Spotify, 10,000 new photos on Instagram, and our Twitter feed keeps reminding us that we are constantly, and always missing out on some event. There is just too much happening around us.

All of the time.

Look Up

We all drift toward whatever it is we’re focusing on. It’s natural to follow your line of vision, it’s normal to gravitate toward the thing that’s consuming your attention. Where you're looking, you'll end up. 

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don't follow me

A little over a year ago, I decided to get Snapchat and it wasn’t long afterwards that I tweeted something along the lines of, “follow me on Snapchat!” It’s everywhere, too–a request to follow someone on Facebook or Twitter or Instagram or Pinterest or…and if you’re someone who super inspires me, I’m quick to follow you (and your ten other accounts, too)..

steadfast

The time that I lived in South of France was a dream – wandering through vineyards in the sun, and sucking on seaside oysters. My daily commute was on white cobblestone streets and my weekends were spent at the market. The biggest struggle was that there weren’t very many Anglophones in town.

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I began to wonder if all our new resolutions, all our plans come down to fear of the unknown, and fear of the future. If actually we set all these expectations for our lives because we are afraid to lose control, and the obvious solution is to pile up our days with commitments to minimize room for surprises.

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finding my worth outside social media

I sit here and write this in my photo studio, which annoyingly, doesn’t have wifi, but today, this feels like a perk. Lately, I’ve found myself feeling overwhelmed when it comes to social media, and so a few hours of forced no-Internet time, I’m considering it a rare opportunity. A rare opportunity to sit with myself and reflect on my relationship with social media (first world problems, am I right?).

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Practicing Gratitude

I have been thinking a lot about what it means to have gratitude. Is it possible to have gratitude in a world that is so broken? Not only socially and politically, but in our homes and lives, and in what we see on online, there are constant reminders of brokenness. Sometimes our situations seem overwhelming and life can often be unfair. We are surrounded by failure, career crisis’, breakups, health battles and even death. But do these things triumph gratitude?